Tuesday, September 05, 2006

My day starts at 1:00 AM

My days start at 1,
and today, one more year passes by.
I confess I sometimes look back,
but there's nothing that is worth lagging.
I reminisce of the then and smile, I glow...
from this last year, not only do I glow,
but I have an afterglow from that...

Today, I go to sleep calmly...
I got the sound of the sea to soothe me,
I got the wind of the sea to whisper to me...
Now I got the smell of sea to calm me...

Gracias por todo...
Te quiero tanto.


Hombre de ojos verdes.

Sunday, August 27, 2006

A Personality Test

Dear Carlos Garcia:

Here are your Brainbench Personality Assessment Results.
Please review these results carefully and refer to the
interpretation notes at the bottom.

PERSONALITY EVALUATION:

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Trait |<--|---|---|---- Range ----|---|---|--->| Trait
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Introverted |..................X.....................| Extraverted
Candid |......................................X.| Considerate
Impulsive |......X.................................| Cautious
Excitable |..............X.........................| Relaxed
Practical |..................X.....................| Imaginative
Concrete |......................X.................| Abstract
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|<--|---|---|---- Range ----|---|---|--->|
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Your Social Boldness: Introverted VS Extraverted
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You are slightly introverted. Do you ever say to people,
"I'm really an introvert" and then they look at you funny?
That's because you can be both Extraverted and introverted,
but in social situations people see you as an Extravert.
Your enthusiastic and self-confident personality, plus your
ease at talking to strangers gives the appearance that you
are outgoing, even though you may attribute it to just
being a friendly person. You find yourself at the center of
attention, even though you may not actively seek that
position. You are such a warm person that people like to
follow you. Which is good, since you have no problem
accepting your role as a leader when it is given to you.
With your ability to flow easily from shy to outgoing, you
may tend to easily flow from exciting adventures to
relaxing times at home. This makes you a fun person to be
around, because you do not always have to be on the go, yet
you know there is more to life than reading and watching TV.

Your Agreeableness: Candid VS Considerate
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You are very considerate. You are a popular person, aren't
you? Of course you are. You truly value harmony in dealing
with others. People recognize your friendly, generous, and
helpful personality. Your easy-going, agreeable nature
makes you such a joy to be around. This is especially true
in meetings or general conversations. The topic may become
heated, but you are considerate of other's feelings and you
will find a happy medium in order to placate those around
you. This is because you have an optimistic view of human
nature and you realize that if you trust people with their
decisions that they are not trying to hurt you or take
advantage of you. This special and rare quality is also
seen in your altruism. You enjoy helping others. To you it
is not a sacrifice; to you it is fulfilling to help others
in need.

Your Self-Control: Impulsive VS Cautious
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You are quite impulsive. You are an independent thinker.
You do not need a book of rules to tell you how to behave -
you know inside what is right and what is wrong and you act
accordingly. You are able to live life spontaneously,
because you are able to make decisions without endless
deliberation. In fact, when you and another person are
making a decision, you are able to reach a solution fairly
quickly while the other person has to cautiously plan every
step. Eventually, they will agree with you, which is
frustrating when your first impulse is usually the correct
one in the decision-making process. You tend to be a little
more casual, and you do not feel out of sorts when your
home or office is not perfectly neat. In general, your life
is pleasurable - you know how to have fun and will never be
accused of being staid or stuffy.

Your Anxiety Level: Excitable VS Relaxed
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You are moderately excitable. In trying situations, you
feel somewhat stressed and frustrated. At times you are
able to overcome these feelings, but other times you feel
overwhelmed. This could run the gamut of just being in a
bad mood to experiencing anxiety, anger, or depression. In
general, you prefer a stress-free existence, so that the
possibility of negative emotions would not be a factor. You
tend to be somewhat self-conscious in social situations,
and are worried that people may judge or criticize you. You
may react emotionally to people or circumstances that you
find threatening, because you want to protect yourself.
Every so often you cave into urges or cravings. Sometimes
you feel a little guilty about it, other times you are just
fine with your fun streak.

Your Openness to Change: Practical VS Imaginative
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You are slightly practical. It is apparent to those who
meet you that you are well educated. You are able to speak
on a complex level to one audience, but adjust to a more
basic level for another. You are bright and capable of
thinking logically. On one hand you are down-to-earth and
traditional, while on the other hand you are creative and
imaginative. Sometimes you feel more comfortable with
familiarity and routine in your life, other times new and
novel experiences are more enjoyable. You are not afraid to
try new things. You tend to like to do a variety of
different activities, so you do not grow bored.

The way you Think/Reason: Concrete VS Abstract
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You are slightly abstract in your thinking. Your thinking
is neither simple nor complex, to others you appear to be a
well-educated person but not an intellectual. You tend to
be intellectually curious and have the uncanny abilities to
distinguish imaginative, creative people from
down-to-earth, conventional people.




INTERPRETATION NOTES

(1) The report sent to your computer screen upon the
completion of this assessment is only a temporary web page.
When you exit your web browser you will not be able to
return to this URL to re-access your report. A copy of the
report is emailed directly to you when you complete the
assessment.

(2) Personality traits describe, relative to other people,
the frequency or intensity of a person's feelings,
thoughts, or behaviors. Possession of a trait is therefore
a matter of degree. We might describe two individuals as
extraverts, but still see one as more extraverted than the
other. This report uses expressions such as "extravert" or
"high in extraversion" to describe someone who is likely to
be seen by others as relatively extraverted.

(3) Please keep in mind that scores on a personality
assessment are neither good nor bad. As with any
personality inventory, scores and descriptions can only
approximate an individual's actual personality. Questions
about the accuracy of your results are best resolved by
reviewing and discussing your report with people who know
you well.
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Saturday, August 26, 2006

Before I tuck in...

I kept my promise,
but still doesn't make me any less sadder...
I want you here,
I want you near,
I just wanted to see you.

Thursday, August 17, 2006

Hoy triste, mañana no se.(Freestyle, con todo y errores ortográficos)

Hoy me voy a acostar muy triste, porque estoy desesperado. He de confesar que todas las noches me voy a dormir imaginandome que soy un piloto de jet de combate. Hoy no tengo jet, y no tengo ganas de volar. No lloro, porque mi operacion de ojos me los seco. Ni me cayo, porque hoy no puedo.
Quisiera algo tan sencillo, y no lo puedo. Quisiera estar contigo y estas lejos. Nunca tengo los suficientes abrazos de ti y por eso no dejo de pedir mas. Aun con todos mis problemas, y todos mis retos, y cualquier corriente en contra, te quiero y quiero estar contigo. Y no lo puedo contener.
Ya que andamos en las confesiones, todos los dias peleo, y todos los dias reclamo, y todos los dias le pido a Dios que todo se solucione. La verdad es que voy a seguir luchando, pero a veces parece que peleo por algo efimero, porque en mi casa peleo por la mujer de mi vida pero no tengo novia afuera. Eso es lo que duele y pesa. No estoy deprimido, pero esto es tristeza, no lo sabia, pero vaya que hay una gran diferencia.
Yo se que es fuerte, yo se es profundo, yo se que es directo, y muy probablemente fuera de lugar. Pero no me pude aguantar.
Termino diciendo que a veces todo esto me hace muy cansado, pero de ti, jamas!

I just had to get this out

Sunday, July 30, 2006

Disappointment? Coincidence Not

Let me hear words and letters that will make feel alright

Because I feel unprotected and I feel faint.

My eyes were placed where not mine should have been laid.

Like the tension in guitar strings strung so hard

The notes rip the air and such resonance strikes bold.

Break my thumbs, Burn both my index fingers, Cut the middle ones,

Sting my ring ones, dislocate the little ones.

Put my right hand on the fire and the left one on top of

Cube of icy feelings and slippery thoughts.

Because I can't believe, when everything seems set on sail

The wind doesn't sound, all is dull.

Once is a surprise, but twice not a coincidence, its will intended,

How it bothers me so, I rather break a bone but still words fall short....

But words can soothe and make me come at peace,

I wish I could hear the words that conform.

I know they are there...

All I want to hear is something that makes me feel safe.

All will be good.

Sunday, July 16, 2006

Tracking how wings grow...

Meet me here....


Tracking July-04


PS: 5 weeks behind.. Lost 4 cm...

Thursday, July 13, 2006

To irony

Here's a dedication to irony:

Gavin DeGraw - "More Than Anyone"

You need a friend
I'll be around
Don't let this end
Before I see you again
What can I say to convince you
To change your mind of me?

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone

Look in my eyes, what do you see?
Not just the color
Look inside of me
Tell me all you need and I will try
I will try

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna to love you more than anyone

Free for you, whenever you need
We'll be free together, baby
Free together, baby

I'm gonna love you more than anyone
I'm gonna hold you closer than before
And when I kiss your soul, your body'll be free
I'll be free for you anytime
I'm gonna love you more than anyone

I'm going to love you more than anyone

Why did it have to be so ironic?

Sunday, July 09, 2006

Basketball Finals.

Basketball finals at the Sunday tournament. Our First game!
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Monday, June 12, 2006

Turning.

The wind has changed,
the gear has shifted,
the door is unlocked,
the window is open,
the tide has turned,
I'm not afraid...

This time, I was not, and am not afraid..............

Nameless wonder.

I just think about a phrase that echoes in me right now: "I'm going to rip up a new one"... Sound familiar? Duke Nuke'm 3D.. Yeah, going to get a new everything, because I have always have had the need to find purpose, balance and motivation. Do I think about everything? perhaps.. Do I risk everything when I feel like it? I've tried... What's my most highly regarded value? Honor... What do I despise? Uncertanty... What do I desire? Companionship... What do I need? peace... How do I feel? Weary...

It's not up to me,
I've laid the foundation...
"Table is set,
the pieces are moving..."
I've made my move.

Nike

... knows how to break paradigms:
Just do it!

Saturday, May 06, 2006

#125

"Serias tu..."

All that needs to be said....
=)

Monday, April 17, 2006

Event Data Dump: 1145232300000@127.0.0.1

#Unknow>Ping Carnator.Cell.Number()
c4rn470r\.Raise Inbound Comm Packet Alert;
c4rn470r\.Execute Trace Comm Packet;
Warning: Unknow@1C1172FE3 has requested Ping Notification.
c4rn470r\.Execute whoIS 1C1172FE3 >> Pong -trace;
c4rn470r\.Notice Timeout set to "Minimum" @1145232420000;
..
..
c4rn470r\.Raise Inbound Comm Packet Alert;
c4rn470r\.Execute Scan Comm Packet.content();
Notice Results: No Id Header. Messege Content - Relevant. Re-quest Carnator;
Warning: Unrequested Carnator.MainThread.Escalation Detected.
c4rn470r\.Execute Pong "Pings Recieved" >> Conclude.Handshake -mode:Courteous;
..
..
c4rn470r\.Raise Inbound Comm Packet Alert;
c4rn470r\.Notice Anonymous Handshake finished;
c4rn470r\.Notice Timeout set to "Immediate" @1145232840000;
Carnator.MainThread.Sleep.Resume;

Tuesday, April 04, 2006

Pineapple.. go figure...

I got tucked in,
I closed my eyes and you talked to me..
I could see you and right before I went to sleep
I sliped off right after your sweet pineapple kiss..


and I confess, I've never had such a sweet dream sleep...